How I feel????

Okay so crappy title, yeah I know, couldn't think of what else to call it.

So I decided to do this because it is a little depressing to think that I haven't always been this way. All through childhood I was slim, and well fit. I was very active from playing sports, Soccer, track, and softball to Dance. Ballot being my favorite.
Well my Senior year of High School, giving away how old I am, graduated in 1998, I tore my ACL, a ligament in my knee. Luckily it was the last game of my high school soccer career. I got a few offers from some small colleges to come and play, walk on basically, but I didn't. One...I was afraid I would hurt my knee again and anyone who has had ACL surgery know how much that sucks, plus I didn't know if I would be able to handle that and college. Wish now I would have.
So with lack of physical active in my college years I started slowly putting on weight. Then I had my fist child and I never really lost the baby weight, then.....you guessed it came baby number 2. What is depressing about that is after I had baby number 2 I lost all the baby weight and some. I was where I want to be now. I wish that I would have worked at keeping it off then. Anyway all that weight plus a few pounds are back, and I don't like it.

When you 5yr old tells you that you are fat, not trying to be mean, just noticing the difference between you and themselves, is really horrifying. As a parent we are supposed to lead by example right, so I asked myself what example am I setting. Well the answer was not good. I limit the amount of snacks and what kind my children can have because I don't want them to become over weight kids. I want my kids to see me working out, and making good food choices.

So in a nut shell I would love to look like I did in high school, but I understand that is a little unrealistic, but to be 10 plus pounds lighter is a realistic one, and that I can no longer use having kids, and a hurt knee as an excuse. I only got this way because I put the wrong food choices in my own mouth.